Darren Criss. I want to thank you. You’ve become my inspiration for not cutting. And I try and distract myself with your amazingness, but sometimes it’s too hard. Like tonight. And whenever I do, it makes me feel like I’ve failed you. And even though I don’t know you, and you don’t know me, I feel…
he took leave for my birthday.
marines will take anything as an excuse to take leave -.-
he wanted to take leave for our 6 month friendaversary, LOL
im not cutting
im not throwing up constantly
stop asking because it just reminds me that the option of going back to those things is there.
i was actually here to blog about one thing in particular actually… <3
nathan is sweet, and i like him and im glad he likes me and even though i said i could never date him the idea of it doesnt seem so bad anymore.hes super sweet and now that he knows about somethings that only tammy knows it helps me feel better around him.. i know i always say people are out of my league… but this guy is seriously like way too nice and hot and talented and funny and sarcastic and … and and anddddd… hes too much. but for some strange reason he finds me all these things too. we’ll see where this goes i guess. hehhe
what a wonderful day it is
3 months with my boyfriend.. still not sure how we got to that so fast
59 unread text messages
23 picture texts
i love today :DDD
just saw jazmin liked my photo/quote
but i cant look at it because my tumblr is being dumb
the glee version of marry you is on my pandora and i was thinking about how when we went to city she would randomly bust out her dance moves
then i remember how annoyed rachelle would get when i would dance in public
and i had this quite vivid image in my head of jazmin and i dancing in the middle of city walk and just enjoying ourselves on my birthday.
it made me smile, lol
doesnt look like its happening this summer
im just so busy
not to mention lazy
on another note, i fucking love glee if you havent noticed
kurt and blaine are my favorite, not only because they are the biggest of flaming homosexuals but because they are hot as fuck
i miss fooling around with girls
this boyfriend thing is weird. lol
whatshisface: thoses times when i had threesomes with you and rachelle… well i was with rachelle most of the time… but i always wanted you -____-
me: lol you should blog that
whatshisface: XD but i’ll feel bad because rachelle will know i wanted you more
me: LOL i was being sarcastic
but it the scars make me feel so beautiful… yet ugly at the same time
its like my boyfriend and i are getting bored of each other
today i cancelled on him to watch glee.
i told him i was working but i wasnt
but next week im working 7 days from 6 am to 10 pm so it should be a nice break.
i miss how we used to look forward to our dates
now its more of a chore.